For the last few months I’ve been living with the thought that my body might have developed a cancer. Today, I found out that it hasn’t. The relief is indescribable. The troublesome bump has been removed and I am here, in my lovely writing room, with no more than a small spot plaster and instructions on after-care for the wound to show for all the dark thoughts that have been sitting in the back of my mind, chuntering away in spite of my best efforts to ignore them. The sun is shining. From where I am sitting, I can see the grass being mowed in the field. Opening the window, I can smell that fresh cut grass, one of the best air fresheners ever. My desk clock is ticking with confidence, I can feel the red jasper, golden tiger’s eye and green aventurine crystals I took to the hospital with me this morning still in the pocket of my jeans. The local anaesthetic has worn off and I can sense a tiny bit of twinging which is not worth the bother of a paracetamol. There are new books on my des